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Tears Me Apart

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Socially-Suicidal

Published: Jul 21, 2009

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Literature Text

Tears cannot possibly express
Everything that is
A battle in my head,
Rip me apart to see the worry
So maybe I could see it myself and fight it.

Make me see
Every chance I still have.

Another invisible cut
Proves everyone wrong
At their claim that these are the best years,
Reasons to believe that my biggest worries
Tear me apart for no reason.

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Yeah, its one of those things that go down and all, first letter of each line spells out 'tears me apart.'

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7-20-09

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EmpressHockee

Jul 25, 2009

i think this is interesting. i'd say more but it's late and i'm tired and can not for the life of me think straight. sleep deprivation sucks sometimes

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